Nostalgia on the Gulf.

Today was interesting. I did my usual thing. You know, danced, read a little, played some acoustic. Then I suddenly got a text from an "old friend" who had moved to Vegas and then came back not too long ago. That someone wanted to get the hair coloured and catch up on old things.

My ex boyfriend, Jason came to hang out today. I dyed his hair black and while the colour was developing, we played our acoustics and sang. I haven't seen this kid in about two years. He hasn't changed much at all to be honest. He's still his whitty and corny self.

After the colour was rinsed and his hair had the blow job (it was blowdried, silly goose) and all that fun stuff, we went to Englewood Beach. It was nice. The weather was just as I like it, windy and chilly. The clouds formed a dome with a space up above so you can still see the stars, and the ocean was a bit angry. Each wave crashed in louder and harder (that's what she said).

He layed down and I layed my head on his stomach. We observed a big party going on not too much further down the beach. They were playing their acoustics around a big fire they had built. I was jealous of course because I knew they were going to end up getting their crunk on and I wanted to join. Very rarely are there parties like that. Highly illegal.

To be honest, laying there, I didn't have any thoughts of him in "that way" at all. I just kept looking out at the horizon wishing there would be a schooner infront of me so I can hop on and sail my way south.

We were talking about feeling isolated. We both were in agreement that being stuck here is like being locked in a prison. There are no opportunities here, nothing to do, no nightlife. Nothing. This place just lays lifeless.

He wants to tour, and I want to sail and do everything as I've planned. What sucks about having several months to a year to think and plan things out, is you tend overthink things. I just hope my life will go as planned. As for it being spontaneous, I just hope it's a positive spontaneous and not a horrific downfall.

Whatever. Anywho, I'm really happy I got to see his spiffy ass and I'm glad we see each other on a friendship level and not "the other way", because I honestly only want one person. I don't plan on having an interest in anyone else. There isn't anyone out there for me who I need other than who I've found, and it's worth the wait. Not only that, but Jason's been with the same girl for two years. I don't want to ruin that.

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